Understanding Reactions

I couldn’t figure out why I felt so much more intense than my brothers and sister about our family history. I was at the doctor’s office one day the nurse told me about her friend who was going to do a Past Life Regression session and she invited me to her home to be a part of the session.
She told me her friend used hypnotherapy and she had experienced several insightful sessions. I was excited about attending as I’m always very curious about these different processes. Some work, some don’t, but I’ll never know from my own personal experience unless I participate.
There had been an issue with my mother which was very unsettling. Ever since the time I was four years old she had told me I wouldn’t have been born if my father hadn’t wanted a boy. They would have had enough food, decent clothing, furniture and cars if I hadn’t been born. This in particular was why I had such difficulty in letting go of the animosity I had towards my mother.
I waited until the other eight people had had their sessions and finally Audrey turned to me and said “I’ve been waiting for you!”
“Uh oh!” I thought. It wasn’t the first time I had Psychics, Readers and Therapists tell me they had expectations about our sessions.


My mother never realized it was her action of raising her hand as though she was about to slap me that was the cause of my stuttering. My parents never understood their arguments and especially the yelling would create a rebound effect in me that would have me avoid confrontations throughout my life. The list was long and the solutions were far and few in between.

Have you ever felt as though you stumbled upon something that was absolutely perfect for you at the time? You might have stopped at a restaurant and it was at that very same time your future spouse would be. You might have experienced a moment of déjà vu or a feeling as though time were suddenly standing still.

I’ve had many experiences like that in my life. I noticed the familiarity of the experience when I was in my late twenties and realized I had to pay close attention to what was going on around me. I knew there was something significant about to take place and it would alter the course of my life forever. I even developed a method of taking a step back as though I was observing my own life from another point of view. I didn’t want to miss a single detail.

The first time I reacted in this manner was when I met my future husband. I was working at a typesetting shop in Lafayette and when he walked in the door, all of the noise from other’s conversations faded in the background. He was talking to my boss about his newsletter but I was feeling as though I wasn’t even connected to my physical body.

It frightened me and I retreated. When he came back to pick up his newsletter I was the only one in the shop and had to wait on him. He asked me out and I immediately said no.